Monday, March 30, 2009 ;

it's 0350 hours to be exact !

everyone including nurulain is asleep now .

& i just dont know why i still cant get myself to sleep .

fuck up sia !

while i cant get myself sleep .

flashbacks from my memories with nenek keep playing in mind .

& as normal i'll get all sentimental .

argh ! ! !

maybe it's because, i didnt get to please her before she left .

i didnt get to do lots of stuffs before she left !

i didnt ! & it really hurts & life really kinda of suck now !

being one tough ass doesnt mean he cant be sentinmental rite ?

& being a bad ass brings lots of tears to others too .

when they shed tears for me, they thing that i dont even care .

when they dont even know that i'm shedding more tears

cause they're shedding tears for me .

i really find it better to fail in studies rather than fail in life .

but at this moment i'm both !

& it really sucks ! BIG ONE !

hahaha . . .

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pyan saturday is my intro here . my first cry 5th December 1988 .

life have been so wonderful since i met gorgeous wifey nurulain ismail on the 10th November 2007 & i can also bring up that her love she gives is unmatch . and never have i thought of replacing her, cause it'll be hard for me to find someone who is willing to love me like how she does . no offence, but she's the only one i can say that know lots about my inner & outter part . i'd like to thank her for never stop trying .

i'm also blessed with manwey(dad), varda(mom), arwen(eldest sis), luthien(elder sis) & arien(baby sis) . they are the ones that have seen all my weakness, my bullshit, my everything easy to say . with lots of shits done to them from me . they've never put me aside . they've never stop loving me . they've never stop putting hopes on me . for now, i may not be able to repay them & show them what they really meant to me . for now .
Hajah Rugajah Binte Sued. I miss you anek.

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my strength & faith:
clone of an angel-1911 never gave up & stop loving me:
arwen-0401 luthien-0806 arien-2009
family friend:
di ina alina nora loudspeaker yazier nifail rumidah jullijat maihudi
JustALink:
LeLove.