Saturday, March 28, 2009 ;

this day will be remembered by me as the day that i was totally rude to my wifey !
she cried so hard on that day . yet i pretend nothing was wrong .
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we went to Mcdonalds .
we sat near the counters .
than she ask me what i want to eat .
but i just look at her and say anything .
than she stand & mumble some words and went off to the counters .
she came back with two ice-cream cones .
she offered me one and i just look at her and nodded .
than we just sit there without talking .
while she was eating her ice-cream .
i was just starting to take mine .
than i dunno what got into me .
i like so fucking purposely to push the ice-cream she bought for me to the floor .
right before her eyes sia !
than i smile at her and say sorry & accidents happens !
i REALLY dunno what got into me !
she stared at me with red & watery eyes !
than she stand up and walk off .
crying her heart out !
she sat at a bench with ice-cream melting down her hands !
when i came to approach her, she walk away .
when she was walkin all alone .
i look at that lonely girl and realise that i hurt her so badly !
i broke her fucking heart on the day that was supposingly to be a happy day !
i looked & stared at her !
and this pity feeling came to me .
i talk to myself & said
"kesian sak ni pompan, die tengah try mati2 nk uat aku happy, tapi at last aku uat die nangis .
kenape lah aku selalu nk kene buat die nangis ehk ? selain aku, sape lagi yg die ade . haish . . .
kenape lah prangai aku ni suke penting kan diri sendiri ehk ! pukimak kau lah yan ! kau jantan kurap sak ! dah bagus ni pompan stay on ngn kau sial ! "
after that i gave chase & apologise .
do you guys know how hard it is for her to cool down ?
walan !
i had to beg like shit sia !
seriously !
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hey dear, do you really thing that i'll forget this incident easily ?
fyi, everytime you were to cry .
it'll never be easy for me to forget any of it .
NEVER WILL !
i love you nurulain .
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this proves that love will always have its sweet & bitter !
& how strong love is when we really do love each other !
& also prove that i'm not that good of a husband to my wifey !

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pyan saturday is my intro here . my first cry 5th December 1988 .

life have been so wonderful since i met gorgeous wifey nurulain ismail on the 10th November 2007 & i can also bring up that her love she gives is unmatch . and never have i thought of replacing her, cause it'll be hard for me to find someone who is willing to love me like how she does . no offence, but she's the only one i can say that know lots about my inner & outter part . i'd like to thank her for never stop trying .

i'm also blessed with manwey(dad), varda(mom), arwen(eldest sis), luthien(elder sis) & arien(baby sis) . they are the ones that have seen all my weakness, my bullshit, my everything easy to say . with lots of shits done to them from me . they've never put me aside . they've never stop loving me . they've never stop putting hopes on me . for now, i may not be able to repay them & show them what they really meant to me . for now .
Hajah Rugajah Binte Sued. I miss you anek.

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